"Success always occurs in private, and failure in full view."   Murphy

Sat, 28 Jan 2006-2 days leave
wth... i go scout
stay back to late....then go home late..
pass up hmwk late...slp late
and now im sick by my
weakly immune system
and guess wad... i missed out impt lessons of my physics...F***
i failed all the tests i took in my A and E maths and phy esp....

"Two wrongs are only the beginning."   Murphy

Tues, 31 Jan 2006-Bloodshed
Yesterday was CNY
it started out smoothly and ends off disgustingly
in summary this happened!
in the morning... we all overslept
but still managed in time to wash up and dress ourselves
everyone was in a joyous mood
i was happily wearing my BLACK shirt and jeans
soon we all got to help set up the buffet
next all the relatives came
and soon for almost the whole day
everyone was gambling
i made a merely loss of $30+
wth
that could buy me a shirt...     oO
People can some more play mahjong at my balcony   -.-""
then
later in the night
that evil thing happened
as usual all the uncles were sitting together outside
drinking all the beers,whisky and XO
one of the auntie later commented
"eh why the plant block my view of the TV arh?"
my grandma
seeming pissed off went to pluck away the leaves
the plant was called "chiku"... smth like water chestnut
then after that she "swan" my mother's english that she
pronounced vegetable as "vege-table" in a singlish manner

i was pissed with her
for playing around with my grandma and mum
she would better watch out
she then ask my mum to play a game with her
to let my mum earn back her winning streak this whole afternoon of the game
i disallowed and shouted in front of everyone of course
shes practically drunk and not in a concious state of mind
i do not give a damn whether how other of my elders look at me
i do not know why but right after that
my grandma and that auntie family wanting to go back home
i was squezzing my fist against my other palm (in my room)
within secs, everyone zhao home
and now the big thing happened
my father
also drunk
from the bottles of hard licquor and red wine
started mumbling to himself
"wheres everybody? why everyone leave so early?"
not knowing how he notice it but
he saw that plant being plucked
he then shouted out loud
"who the hell plucked it?"
we all knew smth wrong would gonna happen
i replied
"ah ma (grandma)"
he said "why?!"
"bcos SOMEONE complained that it block her view of the TV"
"who?!"
"aunt ****"
"and is that why evryone left?"
"No"
"Bull****"
and greatest spectacular moment happened this NEW YR
he smashed th whole pot of the plant on the floor
the glass were all shattered on the floor
the fertilisers seems like deco of the floors
"WHY?!"
he kept repeating and i had to an to him everytime
he does that so as to get MORE INFORMATION out of me
of course
from young till now
my bro and i have been brutally disciplined
we were forced to ans
i replied over and over agian with the same reply
and he just dun believe me
my mother of course would not just stand there and do nth about it
she went shouted and screaming like a crazy woman
about my father being a ***** and wanting to divorce (which till now haven)
my MAD father feeling warm
went to his bedroom and took off his shirt
but he took out his belt to whip us
wOOts... that pain reminded me lots of memory
my mother stopped him
he done it as he wanted more info to be given
which of course nothing else had happen
(other than i shout)   =X
my dad beat my mothers head frequently
and now
histroy repeats itself
my father stopped when he found blood on his hand
he went to wash up and slept on the bed
sprawling like no ones business
my poor mother had to wash away the blood too of course
i would really like to thnak god
its came from her ears
her earrings pierced her
of course its painful
both physically and emotionally
im really grateful that when m dad woke up this morning
he knew nuts about what he last done

of couse theres nothing me and my brother could do
except to watch my mother to suffer in the silence and fend for us
i would definitely not be like my father when i grow him
YUX

"Nothing is as easy as it looks."    Murphy

Sat, 18 Feb 2006-Common Tests
i totally had no confidence other tahn my Geog
to pass from this wks tests
i really have trouble catching up and understanding about my A maths and Phy
Help is needed
i did discussed with my mum on to getting a tuition for me
i am a NERD

"Everything takes longer than you think."   Murphy

Sat, 04 Mar 2006-Results

English   54   C6
Chinese   65   B3
Emaths   68   B3
Amaths   50   C6
Physics    37   F9
Chem       60   B4
SS            46    D7
Geog        62   B4

SHIT RESULTS
is it bcos of scouts?
im depressed ... hah

"Left to themselves, things tend to go from bad to worse."   Murphy

Sun, 23 April 2006-Mid Years
Again in 2 weeks time
exam come again
mid years and wth... i still do not know my stuff well
i am very very sad
for the past few months
i am so busy
i spent so much time in scouts
somemore going easy on my patrol
expecting a better return
now
my patrol log like ****
my patrol day attendance is dropping
( as soon as the ubin camp gets near)
i do not know what is wrong
but i felt i am a lousy PL
i am someone who needs to
work double the effort to get one other PL's result
is there smth wrong with me.... i think so

"If everything seems to be going well, you have obviously overlooked something."   Murphy

Sat, 13 May 2006-June Camp coming....argh
again
i am still sad
i have trained my patrol in
first aid
packing rucksack
orienteering
basha
but not in inspection yet!   wtf

Sun, 21 May 2006-Results

subjects                 term1               term2              overall
English                   54                      40                    47                 D7
Chinese                  65                      48                    57                 C5
Emaths                  68                      39                    54                 C6
Amaths                  50                      63                    57                 C5
Physics                  37                       49                    43                 E8
Chemistry             60                      54                     57                C5
Geography            62                       73                    68                B3
Comb Humns.      46                        53                   50                C6

i am just happy for my Geog and Amaths  =/

"Mother nature is a bitch."   Murphy

26-29 May 2006 - Sec3 Camp
wOOts
and we are here in Malaysia
finally away from home and school
watsmore without parents and with frens =)
first day...
spent time in checkpoints
chop chop chop passports
then
take bus all the way into Pahang
eat packet foods and maggi mee
eat junk food and chewing gum like no ones business
sleep
second day...
cycle cycle cycle
50+km
up and down the steep roads
(u cannot get it in Singapore)
ride for hours
of coures got break in betweens lar
or else die by the sun le
bike like shit
not even good ones
my broke down twice
and i fell when the peddle came off !
got cut bhind my left knee
quite deep and it hurts by my saltish sweat
all of our asses hurts at the end of the day
bcos it was straight and not those tilting type
wth
third day...
today most fun RAFTING
at some place called the white river .....
first we had the usual water confidence
swim to the boat
then pull yourself on the ropes
then boat capsizing drill
then we got flying fox
not really fun cos not high at all
then finally rafting
push the damn boat on calm waters
then the instructors took over when going down slope
damn fun and exciting lor
you can feel like you flying in the air
then also the boat going to capsize at the same time....
Singapore also dun have one
we had the best sumptous dinner over at a restaurant
we eat and refill till we all bloated
then gamble awhile
then listening to reprimandings and finally
prize presentation of OUTSTANDING ppl
ppl who can speak malay to help us translate
and morale boosting ppl and also
strong ppl
Fourth day....
return back Singapore lar
on the Too Too Train
damn long and boring
I NEED A BATH!

02 05 June 2006- Scout Annual June Camp

Fri, 09 june 2006-SANA course
lol
today wake up bright and early just to dress up nicely
luckily this year SANA course at compass point there
near my house
just take LRT nia
as usual
many ppl from our scouts did not turn up
and i met aloy there
kindly waiting for me and giving me directions
his really a nice guy
today i really not myself
so energetic
then i met Arthur and Valarie from BPSS
they were really nice people
the whole course was really tiring
listening ppl talk whole day
wth...this my 2nd time leh
but then i was talking to them lor
talk talk talk never listen haha
then we go BK or KFC (cant rmb) for lunch
and we mug those stuff
haha
we did pass the test
bleah
plus the acting out thingy
no kick
we did it awesomely
under me and another scout PL idea and directing
bleah

Sat, 17 June 2006-BBQ Chalet
my uncle planned a BBQ party over at the
Pasir Ris Chalet
again
damn near our house
then
i didnt really bother dressing up
lazy
lol...then also i need to help my aunt kris to set up her blog
its fair cos she treated us to watch movie the other time
Xmen3 .... not really n1 though
then all the n1 show all rated NC16...sianz
back to the topic
over the wonderful chalet
i met this girl called Demi
she was really friendly towards me and
she make monkey faces at me
pinch me
beat me
kick me
stick out tongue at me
feed me marshmallow
started sharing with me
about her life
her schedules
fav. books
feelings
so on and so forth
i would really love her to be my friend
but i scared giving her some wrong impression
so i just go along wadever is required of
during that moment
and so
i do not know why and how
but i actually gave her my number
-.-""
i think its wrong
and i should make a clear cut
before a hole becomes a tear
and tear becomes a scar
IS TAHT RIGHT?
what am i talking